Friends Don’t Let Friends Dye Their Hair

LauraHealthy Living, Motherhood, Stillbirth: Remembering Juliette Abigail

Some time has passed since I’ve written about the stillbirth of our daughter. At the time, I wrote some serious and reflective words. And now, I feel the freedom and passion to write some not-as-serious, but kind-of-important words. You might find them insensitive or inappropriate, but I think any woman would appreciate the insight you’ll have in your back pocket … Read More

What Due Dates Mean

LauraAll Posts, Healthy Living, Motherhood, Stillbirth: Remembering Juliette Abigail

Maybe you’ll remember that I posted this same photo way back in February. At the time, I was enjoying the early weeks of my third pregnancy. I was happy and content as I felt life growing and changing inside of me. Yet, I glimpsed something profound about Lia asking to wear her bathing suit for two weeks in a row, … Read More

Sorrow into Healing

LauraHealthy Living, Motherhood, Stillbirth: Remembering Juliette Abigail

(You’re going to think this is a strange thing to get all sentimental about, but it was meaningful to me as I continue to weave through the mourning process…) The other day, Vivienne lost her earring-back in grandmom and grandpop’s car. She told me later that she had been so upset about it that she was crying and crying. She … Read More

Mourn With Those Who Mourn

LauraMotherhood, Stillbirth: Remembering Juliette Abigail

These notes are for myself to remember how much certain gifts have meant to me; to remember that, in time, that’s the way I want to give, too. A list of the gifts that have ministered such grace to me during my mourning… Some are well-worn beloved sentiments that work every time; others are surprising gifts that were just what … Read More

Maybe it’s okay…

LauraAll Posts, Healthy Living, Motherhood, Stillbirth: Remembering Juliette Abigail

Maybe it’s okay for a child to face the grave. Though we live in a culture, and are – thankfully – still part of a generation where the grave is rare, our family hasn’t had the luxury of avoiding the grave this time. (Shoot, and I’d done such a good job of replacing all of the old morbid nursery rhymes … Read More

Holding You

LauraAll Posts, Motherhood, Stillbirth: Remembering Juliette Abigail

(Still Father’s Day. Still at church.) After the Assistant Pastor finished up acknowledging the new fathers and giving them pounds of coffee, a woman slid into her seat directly in front of me. In her arms, she held her 6-day-old infant. He was so small. He was unspeakably precious. His tiny ruddy head reminded me of something so familiar and … Read More

The Mingling of Sorrow and Joy

LauraAll Posts, Marriage, Motherhood, Stillbirth: Remembering Juliette Abigail

(Ryan and Laura sitting by Juliette’s grave) Father’s Day. Out of town for the weekend. Late to church. Of course, our seats were in the front. As we slid into place, the Assistant Pastor was calling out the names of young fathers whose wives had delivered babies this year. One by one, the fathers came forward; big smiles; gratefully accepting … Read More