When I delivered Juliette, I wasn’t expecting to feel the same bonding that I felt with our other children.
I wasn’t expecting to feel that deep love that took root when I held our first two squirmy, crying, nursing daughters.
And yet, I did.
She lay so still in the crook of my arm, and my heart gushed with love for her.
(I shouldn’t have been surprised, because God allows the same post-delivery hormones to race through the body; the same maternal instincts to rise up in the heart; so a mommy can know and love each and every one of her babies.)
I was smitten.
I looked at her little red body, which needed so much more time to develop, and I loved her.
No, she was not much to look at; for she was not meant to be seen yet!
But I felt so pleased about who she was; I am so pleased about how far she had come.
I am proud of her.
So very proud of her.
And I want the world to see our little girl.
What a wonder! What a delight! What a beauty!
The mystery is, she did absolutely nothing to win my heart.
She didn’t have to do anything to win my heart.
But did she ever.
So I caught a glimpse – just a glimpse – of the Father’s love for us.
Suddenly, it all made sense that even when we were dead in our trespasses and sins, God’s love for us gushed forth and Christ died for us. It all made sense that His love for me doesn’t even consider anything I might do, be, or accomplish to earn it.
He just loves me.
I have done nothing to win His heart, for His heart has won me.
(Thank you, my dear Juliette, for teaching me the gospel.)
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16 responses to “How She Won My Heart”
What a beautiful reality. Thank you for sharing. . .
aaah… Winning the heart of the Father when we are death in sin. What a beautiful picture! Thank you.
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Laura, stunning. Thank you.
“I have done nothing to win His heart, for His heart has won me” – those words – just yes and me too and nothing like motherhood for revealing it all in all its glorious gushing generosity.
Thank you for this beautiful picture!!
Such a perfect picture of pure love. In all my messy sin, I hope to catch a glimpse of his pure eyes on me.
Beautiful comparison! Reading this brought tears to my eyes! Thank you for posting!
What a perfect, gorgeous description…makes me appreciate my children AND my Heavenly Father that much more! Thank you!
So beautiful and right on!
laura the words you write are breath taking! you write so beauitfully about such a painful subject and it touches my heart!! you and your family are in our prayers!! we love you guys!!
Laura,
Stunning post. Your words are just beautiful. Thank you for sharing your love for Juliette with us. Thank you for sharing God’s love with us.
Laura – one of the first Bible Studies I ever attended, we studied a book by Anabel Gillham and she shared a similar sentiment for her profoundly handicapped son…”I love you just because you’re mine” Those words have stuck with me, in my core, for years. It’s the most beautiful realization to know that God loves us just because we are His. I’m glad Juliette touched you with this truth, filled your heart to brimming and overflowing with the purest love there is.
If you are interested, you can read the excerpt here
http://www.sharonjaynes.com/devotions/ILoveYouJustBecauseYoureMine.htm
I love ya!
Such sweet words in your time of sorrow! Thanks for always encouraging me to find God’s will in everything!
I understand very well. You put such nice words on it and it’s true. It remembered me when I delivered Raphaelle. I felt love for her like for my other babies. A couple of weeks ago, it was the second anniversary of her death and she still in my heart. I remember her with love, no more sadness. I know that she’s with our Father and I know that she will wait for me at the heaven door. We will have eternity to know each other.
So beautiful and heart touching!
Stumbled on your site via Hope Road… Thank you for your story. While we were dead in transgressions and sins, he loved us! What a gorgeous picture of grace and love.
So glad to have you, Brynna. By all means, stop by again sometime. Thank you…