I’ll tell you this much: it wasn’t because I have impressive stats.
In fact, I had the smallest blog on the speaking team. Actually, I probably had one of the smallest blogs at the conference in general. It wasn’t because I know html or photography or even fill a niche really well. I’m not a business woman, I’m not an extrovert, and I haven’t written a “book” book. Until a few weeks ago, I didn’t have a facebook account and I still don’t understand what I’m doing on Twitter. In other words, I’m no social media ninja. And yet, there I am, poking my head up in the back of the Speaker’s photo. I recognize all of the other bloggers, but even I ask, who’s she?
I’m confident that the only reason I spoke at the Relevant Conference is because God ordained it so. He connected me to Sarah Mae years ago when we worked on abstinence skits for high school students. She took on blogging and, well, you know the rest. But she kept me in mind. And when it came time to plan her list of speakers for Relevant11, she looked my way and didn’t care about what StatCounter said.
It was such a relief. I love to speak. I absolutely love it. But there’s no way I had any right speaking at a blogging conference. I’m not even being humble! Really, I had no right speaking at a blogging conference. It was just an opportunity that I didn’t deserve; one that God just wanted to give me. I couldn’t have worked hard enough to earn it, that’s for sure. All of the requirements for having a large and successful blog are so far out of my skill set, that my heart faints just thinking about it. But, God wanted me to speak about Him there. It was something He planned before the creation of the world.
This is a strange post to write, but I wanted to get it down on paper. I guess I’m writing it down because I want to encourage you with this: maybe – just maybe – there are things that He wants you to do that you don’t have to strive for. You don’t have to earn it, build it, or faint over it. He’ll just make sure it happens. Perhaps you just need to be faithful in the little things and enjoy all the things along the way.
Striving gets us somewhere, yes. But resting gets us where we really wanted to be in the first place. And it’s just a sweet, sweet gift. That’s one of my testimonies from Relevant11.